I love you, that is why I am here in Penang with you
I am willing the endeavour the bitter and sour in life just for you
I wanna see you happy, I like your laughter and smile...
that really soothe my feeling...
I like looking into your eyes, coz they shine like stars in the sky...
I like you hugging me, it makes me feel safe, warm and surrounded by love
But, you told me something today...
you are unhappy, you fought with your mum, you left the house...
before that, you were also thought of ending this relationship... because u dun wanna see me miserable and unhappy.
I am afraid of losing you...
I am afraid of not be able to see you again...
I am afraid of no one makes me laugh when i am sad...
I am afraid of no one showers me with unconditional love and protection...
I am just too afraid because, I love you...
You..
are so important in my life...
without you, i dun think i will look forward to certain things in my life
you give me hope
you give me happiness
you give me confidence
you give me strength...
BUT the most important thing... you give me LOVE
Without you,
I will be living in the dark,
surrounded by sadness and anger
nth but a miserable life...
See how many things you give to me, I am so used to all that, seriously if without you... i am not sure what will I become..
A girl with a body but soulless
Friday, May 28, 2010
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Take a bow...
Ohh, how about a round of applause,
Hey, standin’ ovation,
Ooh, ohh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
You look so dumb right now,
Standin’ outside my house,
Tryin’ to apologize,
You’re so ugly when you cry,
Please, just cut it out
Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not,
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and Take a Bow, ohh..ohh
Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on),
Talkin ’bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,
This just looks like a re-run,
Please, what else is on
Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not (mmm),
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh
And the award for the best lier goes to you (goes to you),
For makin’ me believe that you could be faithful to me,
Let’s hear your speech out?
(But you put on quite a show you really had me goin’),
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and Take A Bow
But it’s over now
Hey, standin’ ovation,
Ooh, ohh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
You look so dumb right now,
Standin’ outside my house,
Tryin’ to apologize,
You’re so ugly when you cry,
Please, just cut it out
Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not,
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught,
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and Take a Bow, ohh..ohh
Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone),
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on (come on),
Talkin ’bout girl, I love you, you’re the one,
This just looks like a re-run,
Please, what else is on
Don’t tell me you’re sorry ’cause you’re not (mmm),
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught (mmm),
But you put on quite a show (oh),
You really had me goin’,
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and take a bow, ohh
And the award for the best lier goes to you (goes to you),
For makin’ me believe that you could be faithful to me,
Let’s hear your speech out?
(But you put on quite a show you really had me goin’),
But now it’s time to go (oh),
Curtains finally closin’,
That was quite a show (oh),
Very entertainin’,
But it’s over now (but it’s over now),
Go on and Take A Bow
But it’s over now
Thursday, May 20, 2010
I love you
This post is specially for you.
I was browsing thru my photos album again, and all the photos that we took together actually heals my emo. They are so effective. And those photos really reminds me a lot of fond memories when we were in Adelaide in just short short 1 year.
All this memories really make me a happy person all over again because I know that you will always with me no matter where, what and how. HUgzzz
I was browsing thru my photos album again, and all the photos that we took together actually heals my emo. They are so effective. And those photos really reminds me a lot of fond memories when we were in Adelaide in just short short 1 year.
All this memories really make me a happy person all over again because I know that you will always with me no matter where, what and how. HUgzzz
Monday, May 17, 2010
Penang Hill Expedition
Today, I have an achievement and I am kinda proud of it. I managed to climb up 1/3 of the Penang hill with countless of stairs which the route we took is in Botanic Garden.
It was really a tiring track because the stairs are very steep. And for the first time, I was sweating like nobody business, as if I just came out from shower. In total, the route took about 1hr, but it seemed to be very long indeed.
When we reached 1/3 of the penang Hill.. I was so satisfied. Although, I still could not see the full view of Penang Island, but I managed to see Gurney area from the top. That gave me the satisfaction, all the sweat and effort did pay off.
However, the happiness and satisfaction just actually lasted not very long when my mum asked how far I have climbed and I have told her my achievement. She just didnt care on how I feel or proud of me, instead I was told off for taking so much time climbing just 1/3 of Penang hill. Never a word of praise. I felt so upset instead of contented and proud of it. The words actually stinging me that I am such a useless person.
Never mind that, no one will understand how I could stand living in such environment.
It was really a tiring track because the stairs are very steep. And for the first time, I was sweating like nobody business, as if I just came out from shower. In total, the route took about 1hr, but it seemed to be very long indeed.
When we reached 1/3 of the penang Hill.. I was so satisfied. Although, I still could not see the full view of Penang Island, but I managed to see Gurney area from the top. That gave me the satisfaction, all the sweat and effort did pay off.
However, the happiness and satisfaction just actually lasted not very long when my mum asked how far I have climbed and I have told her my achievement. She just didnt care on how I feel or proud of me, instead I was told off for taking so much time climbing just 1/3 of Penang hill. Never a word of praise. I felt so upset instead of contented and proud of it. The words actually stinging me that I am such a useless person.
Never mind that, no one will understand how I could stand living in such environment.
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Eden Charity Food Fair - Fairly a success...
Today, 15th May in PISA, there was a charity food fair was organised with a purpose to raise fund for the EDEN handicap center. There are numerous of food stalls selling varieties of food, but I personally not sure how good the food is.
I was in-charge of helping the members in the art and craft booth and helping in terms of eating the deeply fried fries, fishballs and other finger food. But now my throat is giving me some hard-time.
I personally helped in making bookmarks from recycle new year cards and decorative wall papers which are fully donated before it was put on sales today. It was a tedious and challenging job in terms of matching two different colour cards and making it into a unique card on its own. The total end products (bookmarks) made were 417 in just 2 weeks time. I believed whatever numbers of bookmarks had been brought to the sales today were about 150 and it was completely sold off. I feel proud of myself because I have donated approximately RM300 to Handicap Center with just the total profit earned in the bookmarks itself.
Besides bookmarks, last week before the sales today, I was making earrings as well. It was tough to me because I have no idea at all in terms of making it. But after a night learning from youtube, well, I had a few trial and error by myself and somehow hesitated that the design will be just my own preferance. However, it was totally a surprise to me because, I managed to sell of about 30 pairs today out of 80 pairs. So, this means I have also partly donated about another RM150 today. Hence, all the exhaustion is really worth it afterall.
In fact, throughout the whole preparation to this sales, I also indirectly realise that my passion is in making earrings. I am actually considering of sideline business in order to earn me some extra pocket money thru my hobby and that will be my extra income. But, a lot of ground work and planning still need to be done.
I was in-charge of helping the members in the art and craft booth and helping in terms of eating the deeply fried fries, fishballs and other finger food. But now my throat is giving me some hard-time.
I personally helped in making bookmarks from recycle new year cards and decorative wall papers which are fully donated before it was put on sales today. It was a tedious and challenging job in terms of matching two different colour cards and making it into a unique card on its own. The total end products (bookmarks) made were 417 in just 2 weeks time. I believed whatever numbers of bookmarks had been brought to the sales today were about 150 and it was completely sold off. I feel proud of myself because I have donated approximately RM300 to Handicap Center with just the total profit earned in the bookmarks itself.
Besides bookmarks, last week before the sales today, I was making earrings as well. It was tough to me because I have no idea at all in terms of making it. But after a night learning from youtube, well, I had a few trial and error by myself and somehow hesitated that the design will be just my own preferance. However, it was totally a surprise to me because, I managed to sell of about 30 pairs today out of 80 pairs. So, this means I have also partly donated about another RM150 today. Hence, all the exhaustion is really worth it afterall.
In fact, throughout the whole preparation to this sales, I also indirectly realise that my passion is in making earrings. I am actually considering of sideline business in order to earn me some extra pocket money thru my hobby and that will be my extra income. But, a lot of ground work and planning still need to be done.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Just upset...
Never a day I can consider "Well, today is a good day". I can say, never in 24 years including today nor yesterday.
I can feel contented, but just a little short while... I have never felt contented and happy for the whole day before. Why is that happening to me? Why sadness always overwhelm me every single day?
Like yesterday, everything seemed to be arranged for it to be happened. I was upset with him cause he said something in the sms which makes me pissed. But at least he appologized and it seemed to be alright afterall.
But the day seemed to have more unhappy happening awaiting for me. Later the day, I was told to go over to my granny's place to give her a visit plus giving her the bread supply of the week. However, she seemed kinda unhappy with the amount of loaf of bread that I brought her (she looked as if it is too little). And on the spot, I have been told off. Aih... what a bad day right?
Never mind that, I did tell my parents about it and today, they bought her another two more loafs of bread. And my dad brought it up for her, instead being appreciated of the effort, she called home, and wanted to look for me and wanted to scold me for telling tales to my parents. WTF!!!
Another bad day, I guess...
I can feel contented, but just a little short while... I have never felt contented and happy for the whole day before. Why is that happening to me? Why sadness always overwhelm me every single day?
Like yesterday, everything seemed to be arranged for it to be happened. I was upset with him cause he said something in the sms which makes me pissed. But at least he appologized and it seemed to be alright afterall.
But the day seemed to have more unhappy happening awaiting for me. Later the day, I was told to go over to my granny's place to give her a visit plus giving her the bread supply of the week. However, she seemed kinda unhappy with the amount of loaf of bread that I brought her (she looked as if it is too little). And on the spot, I have been told off. Aih... what a bad day right?
Never mind that, I did tell my parents about it and today, they bought her another two more loafs of bread. And my dad brought it up for her, instead being appreciated of the effort, she called home, and wanted to look for me and wanted to scold me for telling tales to my parents. WTF!!!
Another bad day, I guess...
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Mother's Day
Today is the world Mother's day.
I would like to say this to my mum: "我请爱的妈妈，母青节快乐。"
There is no any major celebration, but did celebrate this big day with my grandma instead. Bought Marybrown and had it with her, but ended up it turned all sour because she nagged everyone of us.
Maybe because due to her old age... She seemed to be unable to let go whatever has been happening to her, and never show any gratitude on what we have done for her, especially my dad.
But, all in all... I still wish her good health and stay happy :)
I would like to say this to my mum: "我请爱的妈妈，母青节快乐。"
There is no any major celebration, but did celebrate this big day with my grandma instead. Bought Marybrown and had it with her, but ended up it turned all sour because she nagged everyone of us.
Maybe because due to her old age... She seemed to be unable to let go whatever has been happening to her, and never show any gratitude on what we have done for her, especially my dad.
But, all in all... I still wish her good health and stay happy :)
Saturday, May 8, 2010
::MEMORY:: will still remain at it is...
I was listening to "san hu hai" by Jay Chou.
This song brings so much memories back to me in just a short 3 minutes.
So much memories that kept on flashing thru my mind.
Altho that memories were suppressed in me for so long, but they are still very clear.
I miss all of my friends and my life in Adelaide so much. Yes, we have so much memories together and you guys are really there for me whatever mood I was in. But whats in that song that really reminds me of you guys?
Well, I used to go out and sing K with these bunch of friends (Kenz, Ho San, Tyng, Vincent, Yen Shin, Yih Lun, Mark, Ming Koong, Sheanne etc) and everytime they will sing this song. Hence, this song gave me such a deep memories... :)
This song brings so much memories back to me in just a short 3 minutes.
So much memories that kept on flashing thru my mind.
Altho that memories were suppressed in me for so long, but they are still very clear.
I miss all of my friends and my life in Adelaide so much. Yes, we have so much memories together and you guys are really there for me whatever mood I was in. But whats in that song that really reminds me of you guys?
Well, I used to go out and sing K with these bunch of friends (Kenz, Ho San, Tyng, Vincent, Yen Shin, Yih Lun, Mark, Ming Koong, Sheanne etc) and everytime they will sing this song. Hence, this song gave me such a deep memories... :)
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Ip Man
This movie is superb, has been fallen in love with Donnie Yen ever since he acted in Ip Man 1 when I watched partially in Adelaide with Ben and Terence.
But, went thru the whole show just few days ago with my parents before watching the sequel in the cinema on Monday with Chin Lin, Ee Ling and Ben.
The sequel is equavalently as good as the first one, and full of action :)
So, if you have not watched both. Better go for it before it is too late :)
But, went thru the whole show just few days ago with my parents before watching the sequel in the cinema on Monday with Chin Lin, Ee Ling and Ben.
The sequel is equavalently as good as the first one, and full of action :)
So, if you have not watched both. Better go for it before it is too late :)
Monday, May 3, 2010
Life... as the way it is
I have returned home for almost 4 months. Life in Penang, living with parents are very much different from living alone. Comfort and homie feeling is always nevertheless the best of all. But, I am not as free as a bird anymore. However, I still have certain extent of freedom.
Well, one more month to go and I will be entering working life. Hopefully, things will change by then :)
Well, one more month to go and I will be entering working life. Hopefully, things will change by then :)
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