I am feeling so sad today. My worry built up and my troubles too.
Certain things that i try to avoid from thinking keep on popping out of my mind... What should I do so that i get peace of mind??
There is no one that i could turn to, my best friends all have their own things to busy with, my boyfriend too... I dun want him to get distracted from his study because of me. My housemates??? I am not close with them... I am just too far from them...
All I can do is keep everything to myself... keep whatever I can, altho i wont get it solve but time will prove to me.
I love my boyfriend with all my life, thinking of wanna spend the rest of my life with him. I never love someone so much before. But seems like there are so many obstacles in front of us. Too many obstacles... Will the relationship between us last?? I am not sure... I hope it will be.
Yea, he wont be coming back Aust after this year, nothing will keep him here except me. And I am uncertain about my own future. He might be somewhere out there far away from me next year. But for me, his love will never be far away. However, today I told him something that I would never have courage to say, but I said it.
"I always hope that u will always love me, like i will always love u. But if u wanna let go of me and pursue whateva u want... i hv nth to say, but to be there, be as ur friend and support and trust me, u r the last and the only guy that i love, nobody can replace u in my heart. If one day u say that you dun love me anymore and u wanna go for another girl.. i will let u go but my love for u is always there"
It sounds like from the movie, but it is not. It came out naturally from my heart.
To my dear dear, if u see this blog and read whatever its in here. Just bear one thing in mind, that I am always praying that our relationship will last and we will be walking down our future path together, hand in hand. IF you are reading this when we already no longer be together, remember that my love is always be with you nevertheless the support, care and also wishing u that you are always happy with ur life.
I writing this with tears rolling down my cheeks...
